cardi:F21, tank: HMD, belt: DI, skirt: DII'm very excited to announce that I am currently working on growing the next addition to our family. I'm roughly 18 weeks along and starting to feel pretty darn good. In the beginning, I just felt so exhausted, like I could literally crawl into bed and sleep from Monday to Wednesday without a stir. I've had moderate morning sickness, but got hit with a near 2 week hell raising sinus infection that counter productively caused me to lose all appetite and toss anything I tried to keep down. I'm thankful to be through with that, and now focus on much more important things like whether I need to prepare for a brother, or lose sanity and go nuts preparing for a sister. I must say that I've already experienced extremely different emotions with this pregnancy than I did before. I feel guilty, I feel nervous, I feel scared, I feel inadequate, and frankly I'm a little more mean. It's like I instantly realized that the cherished one on one time I have eagerly spent doting over E is now numbered. Our time and relationship are bound to change, and I'll be honest, that scares me. I feel an urgency to spend every day teaching, playing, laughing, and making memories strong enough to last beyond the introduction of a new sibling. It seems like when the day doesn't turn out the way I had hoped I feel disappointed and depressed. I sometimes feel guilty that I don't feel the same way about this pregnancy as I did with the last. There's just no comparison to the way you feel with your first baby, and that makes me feel like this baby is already getting the shaft. I also have terrible fears of never being able to love another human being as much as I love my E. At this point in time, I feel that he has taken up every inch of space I might have to offer in my heart. He's squeezed his way into every single nook and cranny to the point I feel it might burst. He's the face I see and think about the most, the voice I listen to and hear even when he's not around, and the person in this world who makes me happier than any other person place or thing. I believe that love works in its way, sometimes I just feel like I'm gonna need to see it in action. At the same time, I feel a great amount of joy, gratitude, and excitement for this new and upcoming edition. Is that possible?
I'm doing new things with my job. Working 2 part time jobs was really starting to ware me out in all sorts of ways. I've finally consolidated to working one job part-time at Uppercase Living. I'll also continue to do hair from my home salon. I'm ecstatic to announce that I have been given the opportunity to exercise my creative and styling skills for Uppercase Living. I will be coming up with and creating many of the concept design projects. I finally feel like I'm getting paid to do something I'm passionate about which is a huge, huge blessing. If I have to leave my babies, it makes it that much easier knowing I enjoy what I'm doing.
As for frugal fashion, I'm ready for a challenge. I'll be the first to admit that my weight gain was pretty steep last pregnancy. This time I'm trying to do better not only for me, but for the health of the baby. (No promises.) I just feel so hungry! All the time. It seems it's the only thing that keeps me from feeling nauseated and carries me through the day. Dressing without a waist is definitely more challenging, but I feel up to it. At least right now. :) After a few emails with my friend Elaine, and a blessed Skype session with Syd, I feel motivated again.
How are ya'll doing?
P.S. Still happily married despite the absence of wedding ring in my pics.