I can hardly comprehend how fast the time has gone since you've come into my life. Just a short year ago you were sent to our family and changed my life forever. This is what I wrote about the day you were born a few short weeks after your birth: "When he came out he was screaming at the top of his lungs, and it was so comforting to know that his tiny lungs were working. The nurse laid him on my chest, and as he screamed, I joined him with quite a few tears of my own. I felt like I had honestly waited my whole life for that very moment. My new son grabbed on to my index finger and held on to it so tightly. I truly felt like he knew who I was. When I caught a glimpse at the nurse she was shedding tears as well. I will absolutely never forget that moment in time, and how much our Heavenly Father must love us to trust us with his babies."
This last year has been the hardest and absolute best year of my life so far. Hard because I have never been so worried sick and felt the laden weight of responsibility for someone I love more than life. Exhilerating because I have never felt so much joy through just a smile, look, or guesture. Fulfilling because I have never felt so complete and my life has never had more purpose.
They should really do some sort of "heart stretching" preperation before they send babies into the world. When you came into my life, it was as if my heart had to stretched a trillion times in order to facilitate the increase in my capacity to love.
I have loved every minute of my time spent with you over the last year. Some of my favorite memories include the time you cried and cried at bedtime until you had both parents tending to you in your bedroom. Once you acheived your goal, you smiled as big as you could and let out a playful giggle. The first time you looked in my eyes and smiled at me. The times you hug me and lay on my shoulder when I get you out of your crib in the morning. The time I picked you up after a hard day at work and you crawled anxiously to me, only to give me a dozen slobbery, baby kisses. The time we laughed SO hard over nothing while eating breakfast. The time I watched you pull something towards you for the first time and I was in awe of your swift development. The times you twirled your fingers through my hair while nursing. The first time you saw a picture of Jesus.
You have been a light when things are dim, a strength when I have felt weak, and the definition of my happiness. I want you to know, on this your first birthday, that I love you with everything I am, and I would truly give my life for you. I am so
Happy Birthday my baby boy.