The Pain and the Great One

When my brother and I were little, our grandpa used to read a book to us called "The Pain and the Great One." It was a pretty good portrayal of the relationship I had with my brother.

 Having a sibling close to your age is the only way to go. I'm hoping the stars will align and I can provide the same sibling satisfaction for my E. My brother and I endured a lot together at a young age. Our mom was killed in a car accident when my brother was only 9 months old. I don't like to think about the affect it must have had on him, because my E is rapidly approaching the same age. He's just entering the stage where he knows me. He needs me. He reaches for me, and cries for me.

I believe Isaac and I literally had to cling to each other during that time of grief and I think we felt as long as we had each other, we were gonna be ok. We developed a strong bond that I'm not sure anyone could really ever understand. I won't pretend we didn't beat each other up along the way. I remember using that "whip trick" with the towel and nearly disabling his vision for life. I bawled at the thought of being responsible for my brother's life long blindness in one eye. Lucky for both of us we grew out of our childhood without any life altering injuries. Growing up, our bedrooms were always right next to each other. We even shared a room at one point. A lot of events transpired in those rooms. At a young age Isaac learned how to play Barbies and House, and how to wear make-up and skirts. Whether this activity was consented or forced is up for debate. He consoled me Christmas Eve when I was terrified for Santa to come. (Yes, I was deathly afraid of him.) I prepped him for his first Jr. High dance, and we listened to each other's guitar performances. He and I used to talk for hours and hours at night. I'm not sure why it was so much easier to talk during the wee hours of the night; it just always ended up that way. I don't know what he would say, but I came out of my childhood with one of the best friends anyone could ask for. Isaac used to tell me I was pretty and that he liked my hair best in a ponytail. He probably didn't realize this was during a time I needed confidence the most. He listened to me cry for hours after our dear grandpa passed away. When I moved away to go to beauty school, he bought me a massaging pedicure bowl for my birthday. (You wouldn't think that would be within a 16 year old's budget.) When he left for his mission I cried for weeks knowing that I wouldn't be able to talk to him on a regular basis. Even while on his mission he taught me to be grateful for the life that I have.

As mentioned here, my brother found a great girl and fell in love. On January 15th they were married, and I'm so happy for the both of them. Marriage is a journey filled with unexpected events that transform into unconditional love and eternal companionship.

 All 3 sisters with our red faces and puffy eyes. It's a bad idea to have everyone make a speech!

Congratulations to the Bride and Groom!
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The Blakes said...

I used to LOVE "The Pain, and the Great One"! It was one of my favs as a kid. I loved seeing your pictures from your childhood, so cute!

Cherise said...

Thanks for the cry. I imagine you were crying while writing, and it made me cry. Silly me. :)

Anyway, could I get your email address? Shaurie is throwing a shower for me after the girls are born and I'd like to see you.

Mine is cheriseweber@yahoo.com

Amy said...

You sure know how to touch a mother's heart and bring on the water works! Oh well, maybe I needed a good cry today, anyway. I hope Mae and Will have a wonderful relationship like you and your brother. Such a sweet, touching post Sarah.

Mykell said...

I love that post!! Haylee and Payton are a year apart to the day, and they are the same way!! I have many pictures of them holding hands in the car like your picture, I love it!! I hope that they will always have a great relationship and be best friends!! I bet your dad had a lot to do with the way your relationship is with your brother. It is so hard to raise kids alone but it only makes your family so much stronger. Reading that post makes my outlook on my kids futures so much brighter. Thanks for sharing!!

Montessori Moments said...

Lovely post!
Thanks for sharing!
I LOVE your blog!

Brian and Whitney said...

What a good post! I miss you. I am so glad I get to spy on you and your blog, though. You always have lift my spirits! Love you!

Shay said...

congrats to the bride & groom! I bauled my eyes out at my sister Brook's wedding. When they were leaving the reception you can hear my hysterically sobbing in the background of their wedding video. I love having a sibling so close in age to share life experiences with. ANd I can't wate for the little Peterson siblings to be close!!

PaperTree Designs said...

What a beautiful post to your brother!